This Is Actually Happening

“The hardest part about the whole thing is just not knowing; for a few hours that night I wasn’t me and that’s terrifying.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A woman answers a Craigslist ad for a job and ends up on a harrowing night that doesn’t add up

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, racism, violence, murder, police brutality, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

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“You just think this is a nightmare, and then you realize nope this is my life, this is real.”

Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

Episode Summary: A mother faces the ultimate tragedy at the hands of those who are supposed to protect and serve.  

Today’s episode featured Taun Hall. To find out more about Taun and Miles and the Miles Hall Foundation, go to justiceformileshall.org. There you can see the video mentioned in the episode, donate to the campaign, learn more about the case or get involved. You can also join the community on Instagram @justiceformileshall or on Facebook at https://www.facebook.com/justiceformileshall

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Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

Andrew Waits: http://andrdewwaits.com/

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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, racism, violence, murder, police brutality, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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“I did have a hard time ever really feeling safe anywhere, and the problem was just that inside of me it wasn’t safe so it didn’t matter where I was.”

Producers: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: After a brutal rape at age 11, a woman keeps her secret, only to be haunted decades later by events that compel her to confront her deepest fears

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Content/Trigger Warnings: rape, sexual violence, psychosis, mental illness, suicidal ideation, homicidal thoughts, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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“Looking down the barrel of a gun is devastating….Although I was a kid it was very clear that there was lots of hate, and I was kind of frozen.”

Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

Episode Summary: Growing up surrounded by racism and police brutality, a man tries to understand and heal his past by seeing what’s really inside the belly of the beast.

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

Andrew Waits: http://andrdewwaits.com/

Today’s episode featured scholar and novelist Dr. Michael Datcher. Michael is author of the critically-acclaimed  New York Times Bestseller Raising Fences, the novel AMERICUS and the book of literary theory ANIMATING BLACK AND BROWN LIBERATION: A Theory of American Literatures. You can find out more about Michael and his work at www.michaeldatcher.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: violence, lynching, police brutality, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Services

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“It felt like the earth had stopped rotating like I was trapped in this moment of just complete all-encompassing fear.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A young woman hungry to explore the world goes on a trip to Tanzania and unexpectedly finds herself caught in an endless cycle of impending doom.

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

Today’s episode featured Emily Caldwell. You can find out more about her on Instagram @emilycaldwell589

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Content/Trigger Warnings: anxiety, panic attacks, suicidal thoughts, medical trauma, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” – Spuntic

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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“I would do everything I could that had to happen to engage with this object that I needed to do and then I would bury it….And I had to realize at a certain point that it was just not going to work.”

Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

Episode Summary: At a young age, a man develops a fetish for diapers that ends up reshaping the course of his adult life. 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

Andrew Waits: andrdewwaits.com

Today’s episode featured Maz. His story and came to us by way of Dixie De La Tour of Bawdy Storytelling.

Maz is a regular volunteer, educator, and leader in the kink community in Omaha Nebraska. He and his kink family, House St. James, have run the Sex-positive adult education organization, Omaha Dinner and Demos, for the last 3 years. If you would like more information about Maz, House St.James, or Omaha Dinner and Demos, you can find them all on FetLife at House_St_James.

House St.James: https://fetlife.com/users/8118928

Maz: https://fetlife.com/users/263789

Dinner and Demos group page: https://fetlife.com/groups/119528

Special thanks to Sexual Folklorist Dixie De La Tour, Creator and Host of the incredible sex and storytelling series, Bawdy Storytelling. Dixie and Bawdy Storytelling have been running live storytelling events for almost 14 years (and a podcast for 4 of those years), and recently received a ‘Best Erotic Podcast’ Award from Oprah Magazine. You can find out more about Bawdy Storytelling’s podcasts and livestream shows at bawdystorytelling.com.

Listen to the Bawdy Storytelling podcast at  http://bit.ly/bawdypodcast

On Twitter: @Bawdy

On Instagram: @bawdystorytelling

On Facebook:  www.Facebook.com/BawdyStorytelling

On Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/Bawdy

On YouTube : http://bit.ly/BawdyTV

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Content/Trigger Warnings: fetish, age play, sexually explicit scenes, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

Services

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“It’s like you’ve lost yourself completely, and you’re basically left in a million different pieces.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A woman self-medicating for anxiety and depression spirals into an alternate reality after an other-worldly encounter

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Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: psychosis, drug use, demonic themes, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Services

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“Once I was able to be in control of what I decide is disgusting instead of having that placed on me, that’s what helped me become friends with the feeling.”

Producer: Whit Missildine , Andrew Waits

Episode Summary: After growing up in a rigid Christian community, a woman finds beauty in revolting behaviors.

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

Today’s Guest: Gwen

Instagram @bidaily_

Email: bookingoffthecuffs@gmail.com

Gwen was originally interviewed on the podcast Off the Cuffs, hosted by Dick Wound and minimus maximus. She is also the booking manager for Off the Cuffs.

Off the Cuffs Podcast

Twitter @DickWound

Instragram @DWPodHost or @OCPKink

Website: offthecuffs.org

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Content/Trigger Warnings: sex, BDSM, vomit play, excrement play, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Services

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“The mind almost has to find a way to prove that it’s not real. This cannot be happening.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: After visiting a psychiatrist for mild anxiety, a young man embarks on a wild spree that will alter the course of his life forever.

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

If you would like to be in direct contact with today’s storyteller for questions or comments, you can email him at aliveandwell11@gmail.com.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: mania, violent crime, robbery, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

Services

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“In these spaces I, as a vulnerable person, am suddenly given the gift of somebody else’s vulnerability.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: Growing up blind and isolated from her peers in a strict upbringing, a woman finds empowerment in a kinky world where the power balance is reversed.

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

Today’s Guest: Mistress Blind. Twitter and Instagram @mistressblind. Email: mistressblind@protonmail.com

Mistress Blind was originally interviewed on the podcast Off the Cuffs, hosted by Dick Wound and minimus maximus.

Off the Cuffs Podcast: Twitter @DickWound. Instragram @DWPodHost or @OCPKink. Website: offthecuffs.org

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Content/Trigger Warnings: violent fantasies, sexual fetish, masochism, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“It’s truly such an indescribable feeling…kind of like the walls are closing in on you, like reality is just collapsing.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: After a teenage girl begins dating her mom’s student, a shocking accusation leaves a small-town family in ruins.

Today’s episode featured Catherine Cole. You can find out more about her on Instagram @catcole20

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: charges of statutory rape and sexual molestation, domestic abuse, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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The uncanny, extraordinary, true stories of events that have dramatically altered the lives of ordinary people; a son is shot by his own father, a woman's sister develops multiple personalities, a man wakes up in the morgue. These are riveting, moving and often haunting stories that will stick with you long after you listen.

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“Any sense of identity no matter how fake was better than no sense of identity, yet if I don’t have a sense of identity, then who am I as a person?”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: After tragedy strikes a Vietnamese refugee family, a young man finds his new home in a violent gang, forever marking his life path through acts of destruction and redemption.

Today’s episode featured Quan Huynh. You can read more about Quan’s story in his memoir, Sparrow in the Razorwire - www.sparrowintherazorwire.com. You can also find out more about Quan and

his current work at www.quanxhuynh.com and on Twitter, Facebook and Instagram @quanxhuynh

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: murder, gang violence, death, incarceration, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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“I didn’t know what normal was, so everything looked so scary….Everything I was doing I was learning for the time it was like my birth into the world.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A woman puts the pieces of her life back together after a childhood spent inside an insidious religious cult in Los Angeles.

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: child abuse, sexual abuse, suicide, death, drug use, mental illness, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” – Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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“That feeling…honestly I will never forget it, just your heart dropping into your stomach…it’s unreal.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: After growing up in an abusive household, a man confronts a startling, ambiguous loss

Today's episode featured Evan Pestona. If you have any information or resources you feel could help bring justice for Evan and his mother, you can email him at justiceforsteph@gmail.com

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic violence, death, murder, suicide, discriminatory slurs, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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Today we launch a new series of bonus content called “Happenings” with three stories of people facing their deepest fears in the unforgiving wilderness of the natural world.

Part 1: What if the desert dried your sorrow?

Part 2: What if the ocean tested your faith?

Part 3: What if a boulder crushed your dreams?

Producers: Andrew Waits, Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: Stranded in a Mexican desert, the ocean waves of Guam, and the sandstone boulders of Utah, three people face their deepest fears in the unforgiving wilderness of the natural world.

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Show Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com

Andrew Waits Website: andrewwaits.com

Content/Trigger Warnings: near-death experiences, explicit language

Today’s episode features: Tiki Mashy, Greg Barnes, and Shaina Maytum

Tiki Mashy is an owner and operator at Cowboy Up Hanggliding in Wharton, Texas. You can find out more about it at cuhanggliding.com

Greg Barnes currently lives in Guam and works at Castle Zion Church (괌 시온성교회) as the youth / English ministry pastor. He is currently turning his story into a book. Greg welcomes anyone contacting him at gregbarnesguam@gmail.com. That’s barns, spelled Barnes.

Shaina Maytum is a writer living in Colorado. You can read her work at shainamaytum.com

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Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho and Ryan Black

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

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“Right in the center of your body there’s this lead heavy ball, and inside of it is an immediate understanding of evil.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A woman walking to work in the early morning hours faces the ultimate terror.

Today’s episode features Kira Knight. You can reach Kira at violentcrimesurvivors@gmail.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual assault, sexual violence, rape, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

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“I could live with the nightmares. I could live with the panic attacks. But the thing that was tearing me apart was questioning if everything I know in my life was real at all.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A lifelong friendship filled with care, love and personal growth takes a shocking turn in the aftermath of a brutal act of violence.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: childhood trauma, parental abuse, graphic violence, murder, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“You try to take off your skin to try to get rid of this voice, and it goes all the way down to the bone.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A man suffering the deep generational traumas of poverty, racism, abuse and mental illness finds transformative power in an ancient plant medicine.

Today’s episode featured Dexter L. Booth. Dexter is the author of the poetry collection, Scratching

the Ghost from Graywolf Press, which won the 2012 Cave Canem Poetry Prize, as well as the chapbook Rhapsody from Etchings Press. Booth’s poems have been included in the anthologies The Best American Poetry 2015, The Burden of Light: Poems on Illness and Loss, The Golden Shovel Anthology honoring Gwendolyn Brooks, and Furious Flower: Seeding the Future of African American Poetry. He is a professor in the Ashland University MFA program and a residential faculty member at Paradise Valley Community College where he teaches poetry and English composition. You can find out more about Dexter, his writing and teaching by following him on Instagram@dexter_two_omelettes, or on Facebook or Twitter. You can find his books Scratching the Ghost and Rhapsody on Bookshop.org, Amazon, or wherever books are sold.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic abuse, mental illness, suicide, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“The idea that they had plucked me from this terrible life…and it was all going to be sunflowers and rainbows and shit…I just view that as a fantasy.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A young black girl born to a drug-addicted mother is adopted by white, middle-class parents, only to face more sinister taboos as she becomes a stranger within her own family.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: parental abuse, sexual abuse, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“I had to go through having taken everything away from me to come to the conclusion that … you’ll come back a person that’s wiser and a more full, satisfied human.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A young man looking for a quick way to get rid of student loan debt gambles with his life and nearly pays the ultimate price

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Content/Trigger Warnings: drugs, near death, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed:   Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“When somebody hurts you and then they’re like, ‘now you have to take care of him, you’re responsible for him…’ I didn’t know how to feel.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A young woman is forced to make a decision about the fate of a father she never knew.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: death, mental illness, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed:  “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“I had total grief and sadness and fear and also just disbelief that it happened. But it’s different when you lose somebody who hurt you.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: After surviving a family broken by drug addiction and mental illness, a woman finds out her mother’s death was tied to one of the most notorious crimes in American history.

Today’s episode featured Nova Reeves. To find out more about Nova, you can Google her article on the death penalty in the Tacoma Tribune. You can hear her reading poetry on YouTube by searching for Quiet Lightning. You can also get a copy of her zine by emailing her directly at novareeves@gmail.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, murder, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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Today, I'm introducing the podcast What Was That Like, by Scott Johnson. Featuring real people in unreal situations, What Was That Like covers similar, jaw-dropping stories to This Is Actually Happening, but with its own uniquely fascinating format and style.

Today's show will feature a full episode from What Was That Like titled, "Tyson was abducted," about a man who, walking through a parking lot one night, was jumped by two strangers and thrown into a car with no idea where he was being taken. 

You can find the rest of What Was That Like, by Scott Johnson, on all podcast platforms, or check out the website, at whatwasthatlike.com

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“I had this secret inside me that I felt was my one and only friend and companion that took me away from all the pain and anxiety that I had moving through my life.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A young girl’s world is turned upside-down by the early death of her father, but starving herself to cope with the pain becomes a sinister companion

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Content/Trigger Warnings: eating disorder, death, domestic abuse, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“This fake face I was putting on for everybody was my only sense of normality when my whole life is already changed. I didn’t want to admit that stuff was wrong, and I did it in such a convincing way that the majority of people believed me.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A man becomes a hero during a horrific act of war only to face the worst of it after he survives.

Today's episode featured Will Hoover. To find out more about Will, he’s on Twitter and Instagram @WillHooverTV, or you can check his own recently launched podcast about film and technology called Uncovered Cinema.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: war, severe injury, gun violence, PTSD, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“I was sure that this was his mental illness and not something wrong with me until I started hearing it in my head. And that was when I started to think, 'maybe I’m actually going crazy'.”

Producers: Sara Marinelli, Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A woman finds respite from childhood anxieties in relationships only to enter a spiral of mental illness and unexplained phenomena. 

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Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: emotional abuse, sexual abuse, domestic violence, drug use, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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“My earliest memories as a child were fear and anxiety…I was never able to control the situation and that unknown just haunted me.”

Producer/Editor: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A girl straddles many worlds growing up biracial with a single white mother whose new boyfriend brings chaos into a peaceful home.

Today’s episode featured Arielle Hermanson. You can find her on Twitter and Instagram @arijblige

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Content/Trigger Warnings: abuse, domestic violence, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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 “I misused my position of power to get my needs met…How is it that if we’re called by God to this ministry we could possibly do such a destructive thing?”

Producers/Editors: Nigel Coutinho, Stephanie Lepp, Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A priest struggles to transform his life after facing the consequences of his most shameful secret. 

Today's episode featured Gil Gustafson. This episode was originally produced by Stephanie Lepp at Reckonings, and adapted for This Is Actually Happening. You can find Reckonings wherever you listen, and at: www.reckonings.show

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Content/Trigger Warnings: child sexual abuse, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“We have so much less control than we think we do….Death is really close at hand and we do not do ourselves often any favors by forgetting that.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: Firmly established in adulthood with a great career behind her and a wonderful life, a woman suddenly finds herself to be an unlikely perpetrator of the most horrible transgression. 

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Content/Trigger Warnings: death, car crash, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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“It’s much better to try to move forward with your life and accept that things are nebulous, and there are no clear answers.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editors: Sara Marinelli, Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: After finally being accepted to an elite college sorority, a woman makes a new best friend whose terminal illness leaves her consumed by uncertainty. 

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Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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“I completely lost touch with reality. You can’t rely on those around you, and you can’t rely on what’s within you. That’s the most terrifying thing in the world.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: Struggling to find his identity after college, a man suddenly suffers from panic attack that leads to a terrifying downward spiral. 

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: drug use, mental breakdown, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

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“I’m the kind of person where I like to know answers. I don’t like secrets I don’t like surprises…I really want to know what brought him to that. I really want to know why.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editors: Nigel Coutinho, Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: After his best friend contracts a rare disease, a man’s friendship deepens as they grow into adulthood together, only to end with a sudden, shocking turn of events.

Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources:

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

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“All those thoughts were going through my head like you’re worthless, you’re a loser, you’re a failure, you can’t be happy, you can’t feel love…just this feeling of profound failure.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editors: Sara Marinelli, Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A woman sinks into a psychological black hole following what was supposed to be the greatest moment of her life.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“Am I at fault? Am I not a victim? Should I not be able to say that because I let it happen? I don’t know if in the human heart there will ever be black and white answers to something like that.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: Leaving her sheltered but complicated evangelical Christian past, a woman explores a kinky relationship that leads her to some of the darkest corners of the world.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual violence, abuse, sexual trauma, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“I didn’t really realize that it was a thing that was happening to me. I don’t really know how to describe that feeling, but it was just so hard to understand.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editors: Nigel Coutinho, Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A woman finally establishes herself in a job she loves when a customer commits an act that will change her life forever.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: violent assault, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“I just felt something inside of me that was so sickening. It’s just like this point of realization, almost like your biggest fear in that moment had come true.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: Growing up in a small Midwest town, a teenage girl forms a close friendship with a boy from a nearby town, when things unexpectedly take a very dark turn.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: suicide, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“It’s just confusing thinking about even today what I’m supposed to feel about the whole thing…humans aren’t really built to fully understand that kind of relationship.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: Struggling with depression and gender dysphoria, a person finds solace in an online community, but relationships become shockingly complicated by the disruptive actions of one notorious member.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: bullying, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Wake Up” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“The worst thing that anxiety does is make you think that you have control to change something, like if I can constantly be in control of everything then nothing bad will happen.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editors: Nigel Coutinho, Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A family who for years struggled to cope with the aftermath of a traumatic injury now faces a far more terrifying unknown: the disappearance of their father.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: missing person, traumatic injury of a child, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“It’s like this weird tunnel of reality collapsing and you want to hold on to where you just were at where none of this happened, but now you have this thing that you have to absorb somehow.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editors: Nigel Coutinho, Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: A woman is three months pregnant when her husband’s pursuit of a fugitive turns their world upside down.

Today's episode features Shideh Etaat. If you'd like to donate to the GoFundMe page for her husband's recovery, follow the link below. http://bit.ly/shidehgofundme

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Content/Trigger Warnings: traumatic injury, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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“I don’t know what I was thinking but I just kept feeling like the waves of shame because of the shame I made them feel.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: Growing up in a household full of both love and violence in Mississippi, Kiese Laymon struggles with generational trauma, career success, and addiction before finally facing the silences of his past.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: physical violence, assault, emotional abuse, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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“I did have the feeling that someone was gonna come back and do something horrible again after that.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editors: Nigel Coutinho, Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: Terra Newell is thrown a nightmare scenario as her mother’s new love life spins out of control, while the ordeal takes on a new life as the centerpiece of the famous Dirty John podcast and TV series.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: physical violence, assault, emotional abuse, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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“My personhood had been shattered into a thousand pieces that I and my family were left to pick up one at a time.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: After self-medicating for years to cope with the emotional aftermath of an abusive, religious upbringing, a woman goes in for a minor surgery, and when she emerges, everything has changed.

Today's episode features Olivia Wilder. You can find out more about Olivia in Instagram @oliviaamputeefitness

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Content/Trigger Warnings: medical trauma, explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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Announcements for Season 9 of This Is Actually Happening. Includes updates on the release schedule, the new This is Actually Happening store, and more. If you'd like to submit a design for a This Is Actually Happening t-shirt or poster, send your artwork to actuallyhappeningpodcast@gmail.com

All episodes of the show prior to episode #130 are available ad free with Wondery+. Join Wondery+ to access the full This is Actually Happening catalog, along with exclusives, binges, early access, and ad free listening. Available in the Wondery App. https://wondery.app.link/happening

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“How could I allow myself to mourn what I had lost? Because if I mourned it, then it was like a death, and I couldn’t accept that the me that I knew had died.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: After devoting his life to a singular passion, a man develops a rare condition that threatens to crush his dreams forever.

Today’s episode featured Stefan Weiner. As a musician, he goes by Stefan Alexander and you can hear more about his music on his website at www.stefanalxndr.com, on Instagram @stefanalxndr, or look for Stefan Alexander on any music platform.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four” “Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“All that traumatized people are really looking for is not a fix-it but more like a validation or acknowledgement that it matters.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Nigel Coutinho

Episode Summary: A woman finally establishes a life for herself after years of caring for her mother’s illness, only to watch her entire life be consumed before her eyes.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Wake Up” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“It’s interesting always having this void, knowing that you have something so wonderful that could love you so much and you could love so much that exists out there.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Nigel Coutinho

Episode Summary: A young man falls deeply in love after meeting the girl of his dreams, leading to an unexpected event that leaves him with an irreparable void. 

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Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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“I have a fear every single day am I going crazy and I don’t even know it? I didn’t know the things that I was doing and the things that I was saying were so extreme.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Nigel Coutinho

Episode Summary: After surviving a father whose mental illness consumed the family, a woman spirals down into psychosis and compulsive behaviors, finally leading her on the path to healing.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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“People say you should always trust your gut feelings. But I couldn’t trust my gut feeling and I still can’t to this day, because to me a gut feeling is in turn thinking about hurting somebody else.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Nigel Coutinho

Episode Summary: After coming to terms with her identity, a woman develops intrusive thoughts that consume her most important relationships.  

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Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

Intro Music: ""Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Services

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

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"We're still here. What part are we playing in all this?"

Producer: Whit Missildine

Episode Summary: After finally deciding to settle into a long term relationship, a woman becomes tangled in a web of confusion, guilt and grief as her partner self-destructs

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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, suicide, explicit language

Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: "Cat Wearing Glasses" – Lee Rosevere

Services

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